Sunday, May 31, 2009

2 Corinthians 1:3

"God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort."

Saturday, May 30, 2009

cOoLeSt WeBSiTe By FaR..............

A friend of mine told me about a cool website where you can edit your pix for free (there is a fee for "premium" editing), you do not have to register to use it.
It is so much fun!! Check it out!!

Here I did a little of my own.

Drea's self portrait (one of many),
I added a tiara & tattoos & a kiss on the cheek...

The picture is bright & soft at the same time...

This one of Drea looks like a picture from 1960...

I love this one! Focal point being in color.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Revelation 3:20

"Look! I stand at the door and knock. If you hear My voice and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends."

Thursday, May 28, 2009

1 John 1:5

"This is the message we heard from Jesus and now declare to you: God is light, and there is no darkness in Him at all."

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

100 fAcTs AbOuT mE.....

(some things you may or may not know about me)
I thought I would do something a little different, let's just see if I can do it.....

1. My full name is Jennifer Beth Phillips Reyna.
2. I go by Jennifer, Jenny or Jenn; my dad use to call me Jeb.
3. I have 2 brothers (Michael & Bo) & 2 sisters (Sami & Stephanie).
4. I loathed my hubby when I first met him.
5. Once we started dating it took me 2 weeks to kiss him.
6. I went to 4 proms (2 jr. & 2 sr.).
7. I told my hubby "I think I'm falling in love with you" first.
8. I ran away from home 1 week before I turned 16.
9. I have the best parents ever! Not just because they read this.
10. My mom & dad have been married for 33 years.
11. I have 2 daughters (Andrea & Makaila) & 1 son (Nehemiah).
12. I had a min-pin named Zeus who was killed by some dogs.
13. When I was a child I had a dog named Gomer & one named Chiquita.
14. Chiquita
& Gomer had pups & we kept one my brother named Gilbert.
15. We use to have pet snakes & tarantulas.
16. We had 2 pet parakeets as children.
17. One named Cheech & my little brother would say his name was William Charles "Cheech" Bo Phillips.
18. I bite my finger nails.
19. I love the colors red, black & pink.
20. I wish I had spelled Makaila like this: Michaela.
21. When I was pregnant w/Andrea I had picked out Andrea for a girl & Nehemiah for a boy.
22. Makaila is named after the character on Dr. Quinn Medicine woman (my mom always wanted one of us to use that name).
23. I wish I was in closer contact w/some of my cousins.
24. I love horror movies, even though I cover my eyes & get under my hubby's arm.
25. I love to read murder mysteries.
26. No, I am not psychotic (even though my mom would debate that).
27. I love to watch Prime Time Crime, 20/20 or Dateline.
28. I had long hair as a child & my girls do too.
29. I am scared of the dark (I know, it does not match what I said above).
30. I love mexican food, the hotter the better.
31. I have three sister-in-laws (Jessica, Laci & Amy).
32. I have one brother-in-law (Juan).
33. I love being w/my family when we can all be together.
34. I love being w/my hubby's family when we can all be together.
35. The louder the better (I think I was Italian in my past life).
36. I do not believe in reincarnation.
37. I love chicken fried rice & crab ragoons (cream cheese & crab wontons) w/chinese hot sauce.
38. I love most veggies (raw or cooked).
39. I could be a vegetarian (w/a little bit of chicken).
40. I do not care for cheese or ice cream.
41. I hate white milk.
42.
My hubby & I wanted a second child so we got married after dating 6 years.
43.
JD wanted to marry me when we found out we were pregnant w/Andrea, but I do not believe you have to be married to have children (it is ideal, but I do not think it has to be).
44. I am really proud of both of my brothers.
45. Michael is going to Theology school & will one day be a pastor of his own church.
46. Bo is a firefighter.
47. My sisters took themselves out of our lives (for boys).
48. My sisters are actually my dad's nieces that my parents adopted when their parents did not want them.
49. I pray every day for my sisters.
50. I use to make them be my backup singers & try to teach them to dance.
51. I miss my sisters!
52. They have children I may never get to know (Sami-2 & Steph-1).
53. I can hold a grudge & am a jealous person.
54. I love Dean Koontz books.
55. I loved the Harry Potter book series & have all the books & movies.
56. I love the Twilight series (will probably own the books & movies).
57. I laugh when I am nervous &/or scared.
58. I have a pink & blue rubber bracelet I never take off that says "Remembering" & has two tiny footprints.
59. I have really dry skin, but an oily face (like you care).
60. The one childhood memory I love the most is going camping & fishing.
61. We owned a silver Buick & Bo would sleep in the back window, while Michael & I would sleep in the backseat.
62. We had a one ton van that said "Goof Troopin" on the back.
63. My hubby & I did not have a car for a while & had to use that van a few years ago.
64. I was born & raised in Amarillo, TX.
65. I would hate to have to move away from my parents.
66. I get annoyed easily.
67. In all I have 9 nephews (Alex, Connor, Dobie, Collin, Pepper, Dominick, Ethan, Cash & Carson) & 2 nieces (Meagan & Cadence).
68. I sing "You Are The Wind Beneath My Wings" to my older brother (he really is).
69. I love to be outside.
70. I have a small case of OCD & am a little bit of a germaphob.
71. I love to scrapbook.
72. I love to take pictures of my kids & outdoor things.
73. I believe in & love God.
74. I believe Jesus the only way to Heaven & I love Him too.
75. I hate when people do not capitalize Him when referring to God or Jesus!
76. Another childhood memory I love to remember is playing hide & seek in the dark w/the neighborhood kids. Ahhhh, the good ole days.
77. I am scared of dogs!
78. I am scared of motorcycles, even tho the hubby thinks he is getting one some day.
79. I grew up in the same house my mama was raised in.
80. Thanksgiving & Christmas are my favorite holidays because we are all together.
81. I love to sing, but cannot bring myself to do it in front of anyone.
82. I think I am good at singing, but cannot bring myself to do it in front of anyone.
83. I do not want to get older because it means my parents are getting older.
84. The smell of bananas & yellow apples (together) reminds me of my grandma's kitchen when I was younger.
85. I love old music! Thanks to my Dad!
86. I love black & white movies, especially if there is singing & dancing.
87. I love life! No matter how hard it seems to be.
88. I love to listen to my dad & brothers sing. Even when my dad makes up his own lyrics.
89. I would like to be a child advocate or social worker, but I do not want to follow the 'rules'.
90. I did not vote for Obama, but I pray for him & his family everyday.
91. My hubby is my rock & I am glad he is the one God gave me to go through what we have gone through.
92. I wish I lived on a farm & grew my own food.
93. I am scared of thunder (more than I am of the dark).
94. I love Desperate Housewives, Brothers & Sisters, Grey's Anatomy & Private Practice (I hardly ever miss an episode).
95. I only have a few close friends @ work.
96. I LOVE peanut butter.
97. I have been @ my job for 8 years & 10 months.
98. I am a big cry baby; when I am mad, sappy movies, the news, men crying, sad stories, etc. give me tissues!!
99. I love being a soccer mom & PTA mom.
100. I want to be as good a parent as my parents are!

Ephesians 1:5

"God decided in advance to adopt us into His own family by bringing us to Himself through Jesus Christ. This is what He wanted to do, and it gave Him great pleasure."

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Ephesians 1:4

"Even before He made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in His eyes."

Monday, May 25, 2009

BeTTer LaTe ThAn NeVeR...

March of Dimes 2009 March for Babies.
Team Nehemiah Christopher Reyna.

L-R: Sherry (my mom), Lisa, Me, Angela, Jeslyn, Becky (m-in-law), Andrea, Kendra, Kelli L. & Kelli M.Andrea & Myself @ Nehemiah's Memory Mile Marker.

Unfortunately JD & KK could not walk with us this year, but definitely next year they will. JD & I got there a little after 6:30 a.m. to help set up the memory mile & blow up balloons & tie ribbon on them. It was loads of fun!

We would like to suggest anyone out there who is willing to help by getting donations & coming out to Run or walk, please sign up early next year. Even if you have never experienced the pain of a pregnancy or infant loss or having to deal with the stress of a premature birth yourself, I ask that you get out & help raise awareness & money to prevent it from happening to you or a loved one.

Thank you everyone who supported my family & my team or anyone's team for that matter. May God bless you!


Thursday, May 21, 2009

Luke 4:18

"The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, for He has anointed me to bring Good News to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim that captives will be released, that the blind will see, that the oppressed will be set free."

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Hope Beyond All Reason

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE

"Even when there was no reason for hope, Abraham kept hoping—believing that he would become the father of many nations…" Romans 4:18

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria

Are you facing a situation that seems hopeless? Maybe you have a promise from God that you haven’t seen come to pass yet. Perhaps it seems like it could have come to pass a few years ago, but now there’s no reason to hope any longer.

In the Bible, Abraham was in the same situation. He had a promise from God that He would be the father of many nations. The only problem was that both Abraham and His wife, Sarah, were well beyond child-bearing years. Abraham didn’t see any reason to hope. There was no way he could think of for God’s promise to come to pass. But I love what this scripture says—even when there was no reason for hope, Abraham kept on hoping. He chose to have an attitude of faith and expectancy, and God was faithful to Abraham and fulfilled His promise!

I encourage you today, when you are facing a situation that looks hopeless, put your hope in God! He will never forsake You; He is the one, true, faithful God! When you hope beyond reason, you will see His promises fulfilled in every area of your life! one, true, faithful God! When you hope beyond reason, you will see His promises fulfilled in every area of your life!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Heavenly Father, thank You for Your faithfulness in my life. I trust that Your promises are true. I choose to put my hope in You no matter what my circumstances may look like. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Giving it Up to God.....

I have handful of blogs on that I just cannot help but check up on everyday.

It is like God is leading me to certain people to give & get encouraging words.

Some of the blogs I have read, the person's whole life has been completely turned upside down & inside out, but they continue to have trust & love in Christ. I think it is awesome!

I do not recall a time being mad directly at God when I lost my son. I remember being mad at myself or just the fact of not having him here with me. But I can honestly say I have not been mad at God. I am not saying I am perfect for this, because I am not. I admit I have mentioned times that it sucks & it being unfair. I have asked WHY? a thousand times. Was I not good enough, did I do something wrong, am I horrible mom to the ones I have, do I not deserve any more? But I have never cursed God nor turned my back on Him. If anything, this has actually brought me closer to Him. (Amen)

One day I was asking myself, why do we have to be so sad when someone dies? What about death makes us so sad?
Why can't we be happy & joyful that they are lying in waiting for our Savior to come get them?

I praise God for giving me my little time I had to share with my son. Even though he was not breathing when he was born, he was surely alive inside my womb! I got to see him on the sonogram screen at 12 weeks moving around so much. It was like watching a fish in water!! I started feeling him move at 15+ weeks. I love those two things the most, besides when I got to see him after he was born.

Those are my memories I will hold on to for now.
I know in my heart that one day Jesus is going to come back down to earth & take us all home. Then, I will get to play with my son & be with him for all eternity.

One more thing before I go, I am turning it ALL over to God, right this moment! I have believed my whole life that Jesus is my savior, but I know that I have not completely given it to Him yet. I trust Him & know He is the alpha & omega, the beginning & the end. I will walk in His path & I will let Him lead instead of me trying to lead myself & glorify You always. Jesus take my heart & make it Yours. My will is Your will. Amen

Before I go here is one thing my friend David Ramos twittered about & I wanted to share: "
I always had a problem w/ the bumper sticker: Jesus Is My Co-Pilot. -He should be in total control! I dare u to try it. Give him the Wheel!"

Monday, May 18, 2009

tHiNgS tHaT tiCkLe mY fAnCY.....

The smell of the air before a storm.
Handmade cards.
Love stories.
Baby giggles.
Homemade ice cream.
X's & O's.
New rose buds.
The smell of a baby.
Listening to made up songs by little children.
Puppies.
Love letters.
Kool-aid smiles.
House full of family.
Coloring Easter eggs.
Fresh baked cookies.
Holidays.
Home cooking for my family.
Sleeping under the stars.
Sitting on the porch watching life.
Black & white photos.
My Girls!!
Drea, it had snowed the day we moved into our home,
March 14, 2005; it was Spring Break.

Drea after her 1st hair cut (May 2005).
It was to her behind.

KK, looking precious!
(2yrs. old in both pix)


Sunday, May 17, 2009

It'S sO hArD tO SaY gOodByE...

Because you prayed, you gave & you loved, here in My arms is wholeness, not brokenness.

Goodbye for now Kayleigh Anne Freeman, you will be missed.

Tho we never met, I know we will one day.

Bible Verse

But it is written:
"Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him." 1Cor. 2:9

Saturday, May 16, 2009

More From the Book 'Mommy, Please Don't Cry...'

'Someday, Mommy, we will hold each other tight! Then you will cradle me in your arms & stroke my hair...& once again, our hearts will beat together.'

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Rest in peace Kayleigh Anne Freeman
June 23, 2008-May 11, 2009
1lb. Miracle


Watch The Doctors tomorrow, check your local listings.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Amazing (lyrics)

by Janelle

The morning cold and raining,
dark before the dawn did come
How long in twilight waiting
longing for the rising sun
ohoh ohoh

You came like crashing thunder
breaking through these walls of stone
You came with wide eyed wonder
into all this great unknown
ohoh ohoh

Hush now don't you be afraid
I promise you I'll always stay
I'll never be that far away
I'm right here with you

You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...
You are

You came from heaven shining
Breath of God still flows from you
The beating heart inside me
Crumbled at this one so new
ohoh ohoh

No matter where or how far you wander
For a thousand years or longer
I will always be there for you
Right here with you

You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...

I hope your tears are few and fast
I hope your dreams come true and last
I hope you find love that goes on and on and on
I hope you wish on every star
I hope you never fall too far
I hope this world can see how wonderful you are

You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing...

You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...
You are

A Mother is...

Born
a Guardian Angel Everyday
Something to be Loved
Worth
Truly a Blessing
Like a Queen
Something to be Honored
Irreplaceable
Something to be Treasured
The Purest Form of Love
Superior
a Life Giver
a Special Friend
Like No Other
Here is my mother @ 11months of age.

Here she is with four of her nine grandbabies!

Let me tell you a little about my mom, aka Granny.
She was born on Halloween 1958.
She met my dad in 1975 & they married May 11, 1976.
My brother Michael was born, October 21, 1976.
I soon followed on November 9, 1978.
Finally, there was Bo who was born June 17, 1980.
She is the sweetest, loving, most hardworking & supportive mother a girl could ever ask for & I know I am the luckiest woman alive to have been raised by her, along with my dad.
I would never trade her for anything!

I love you mom, thanks for giving me life & thank you God for giving me this wonderful woman I call MOM!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MOMS EVERYWHERE!!



p.s. if you've never seen this video you need to check it out.

Saturday, May 09, 2009

This bear was made by hand.
A woman in my support group had this bear made for me.
She received one after her precious daughter passed as well.
He sleeps at the head of our bed between JD & I.
Just wanted to share him with you all.



Tuesday, May 05, 2009

HoPe Is...

a waking
the thing with feathers
built
not a strategy
gone
not a plan
a choice
never lost
a good thing
a tall order
in the mechanism
spirituality
life foundation
more than wishful thinking
not for wimps
black
on the horizon
gold standard
a jewel
a stranger
alive
victory
uplifting

Living Hope

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE

“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In His great mercy He has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead" 1Peter 1:3

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria

In what or in whom do you put your hope? Sometimes it’s easy to get focused on the natural realm and put our hope in what we can see or what we can understand—people, jobs, governments. But we have to remember, this world is temporary. When we put our hope in things of this world, eventually those things will fade away. But when we put our hope in Jesus, we are hoping in what is real and eternal. Through Him, we have a living hope—hope that will never disappoint or fade away.

I like how Webster’s dictionary defines hope: “to desire with expectation of obtainment.” Isn’t it good to know that we will obtain every promise given to us through Christ Jesus? We have a future and a hope!

The next time you feel discouraged or frustrated with what’s going on around you, remember that you have hope inside of you that is alive. You have the promise that He will never leave you nor forsake you. Put your hope in God and let Him direct you in the good plan He has for you!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father in heaven, thank You for a living hope! I choose right now to refocus my mind and heart on Your purposes for me. Help me stay focused on what is eternal so that I can make wise decisions in everything I do. I bless You today and always. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Monday, May 04, 2009

White as Snow

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE

“…though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow…" Isaiah 1:18

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria

Isn’t it good to know that we serve a God who wants to make us new? Because of Jesus, no matter what has happened in the past, we can be made pure again and white as snow! You might be thinking, “Oh Joel, you don’t know what I’ve done. You don’t know what I’ve said. You don’t know how I’ve acted. I don’t even know if I can forgive myself.” Friend, you have to understand that when we come to God and repent of our sins, the Bible says that He takes those sins and casts them as far as the east is from the west. And by choice, He remembers them no more.

He’s not ever going to bring up your sin again. He’s not going to hold it over your head. In His mind, it’s as if it never happened. And if God has forgotten your sins, if He sees you “white as snow”, why don’t you start seeing yourself that way? You don’t have to live in condemnation over the past any longer. You are a child of the most High God. You are pure; you are new. Embrace His mercy so you can move forward into the abundant life He has for you.

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father in heaven, thank You for forgiving me. Thank You for making me new and pure. Help me to see myself and others the way you see us. Help me to stay focused on the good plan You have for my future. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Sunday, May 03, 2009

Rejoice in Difficult Times

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE

"We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation" Romans 5:3-4

Today's Word From Joel & Victoria

Did you know that the way you handle your adversities has a huge impact on your success in life? If you shrink back, choose to get bitter, and lose your enthusiasm, then you are allowing the difficulties of life to bury you. You are allowing hardship to keep you from your God-given destiny. But if you choose to keep pressing forward with a smile on your face, rejoicing even in the hard times, you are allowing God’s character to be developed inside of you. You are setting yourself up for promotion.

Did you know that the only difference between a piece of black coal and a priceless diamond is the amount of pressure that it’s endured? When you stand strong in the midst of the trials and difficulties in life, when you allow God to shape and mold your character, it’s like going from a piece of coal to a priceless diamond. Those difficulties are going to give way to new growth, new potential, new talent, new friendships, new opportunities, new vision. You’re going to see God develop your life in ways that you’ve never even dreamed!