I cannot believe it is already July! That means only about a month until school starts again. Andrea will be in the 8th grade & Makaila will be in the 3rd. Before we know it, Andrea will be driving & then dating. Ugh! So not ready for that one bit.
This July we have not had much excitement. Since we are so dry, we did not get a 4th of July show. Usually they have fireworks at the park & we sit in the parking lot of one of the churches close by. This year they did a laser light show & from what I understood, you had to actually be inside of the park to see it. Which stinks.
We have been experiencing 3 digit weather & with no rain, it has been pretty bad. We had a month of fires, which to me, seem to have tapered off. Hopefully people around here are using their noggins when grilling & smoking cigarettes outside.
The girls have been laying around watching movies, going to the park & swimming. We went camping at the end of June with my parents & it was quite fun! We got to spend time with my brothers & their families. JD has been keeping the kids during the day & umpiring in the evening & weekends. He had a few weeks off except for weekend tournaments & the season just started full-swing again.
I hope & pray everyone is having a safe & happy summer. Enjoy it while it lasts!
Well, it has been a while since I actually wrote a post on here & thought it might be good to do a post.
Andrea is enjoying the 6th grade & will be 12 on the 21st of October. Makaila, aka Beethoven, is enjoying the 1st grade when she is not getting into trouble for making the other kids laugh. It has already been an interesting school year & it has only just begun.
I am working a part-time job right now which is really helping me clear my head, but also makes me sad to miss hearing how the girls' day went & putting them to bed. On my evening off during the week we spend the evening talking & laughing. They fill me in on everything. I'm off on Sundays which is nice too. We were spending it at the park watching softball, but the season is about over. Beethoven loves watching her daddy play "t-ball" & even asked him if he will still come watch her play "t-ball" when she gets big like him.
As of right now our marriage is complicated in so many ways. I would love to elaborate more than I have already to some, but until we work it out or separate for good, it would only make it that much more awkward/complicated. For anyone who is or has ever contemplated divorce knows what that means. You want to make your own decisions & if you blab your business to everyone then they all want to "help" & it just makes it that much more difficult to decide on your own what to do with judgments flying everywhere. I know sometimes it seems the decisions are so much easier when you are on the outside looking in, but until you are in that position you will never really know how hard it really is. You have what if's & what about's & some believe leaving & giving up would be just so easy.
We aren't two people who met in a bar last night & hooked up. We aren't two people who met online yesterday & think we are soul-mates today. We have history & it is too much history to let go. We have 14 years together & two beautiful daughters. We have been through a lot more in the last two years than people who have together 30 or 40 years together & I honestly am glad it was him who was here with me. But I am also in that place right now that if we do not work out I am okay with that. That I can say I gave it my all & I know it will be hard, but I can move on.
I have really let myself falter & I am not proud about that. I came on here & blogged about giving it up to God in May & by July we were having problems. I know this is a test & I had not been handling myself very well. However, the past couple of weeks I have been putting more & more of this back into God's hands because He is truly the only one who can help us at this point.
All I can ask for now is prayer from everyone as this month itself is going to have road bumps through out.
"Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is. Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit. Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ." Eph. 5:15-20
Well, as some of you know I am partaking in the Lent proceedings. I have given up chips. It has been a little hard since I am a chipaholic.
"Hi, may name is Jenny & I have a problem! I am a chipaholic!"
I pack my girls' lunch & when I reach for those toasted, cheese flavored, triangular shaped chips, I would really like to just sneak one. No one will see me, but wait! God WILL! I have been doing really good. The other afternoon we had KK's birthday party & I had to twisty tie the chips & they all were yelling for me to eat them. I resisted though. Satan did not win this battle.
My March for Babies Fundraisers are going GREAT! I have sold 4 boxes of chocolates, earning my team $100.00! Then, I had went to Michael's & purchased flower kits for $1.00. Each kit contains a 1 1/2" pot, a little dirt clot & a packet of seeds. I sale them for $2.00 & so far I have made $50.00 to go towards my team!
My BFF, Bridgett, got me a gift certificate to a local gormet shop that we are going to give away as a prize. The game? How many Jelly Bellys are in the baby bottle? & one of my other close friends, Kelli, is going to get me a gift certificate from her niece's shoppe to raffle off. I am just so into this. I am going to do this for the Susan G. Komen. You never know when you are going to need these services.
I have six friends, four cousins, my mom (hopefully my aunt & sister-in-law), all signed up to be a part of my team.
I promised the other day that I would post another funny story about one of my drama queens. Let me tell this one, it's the best by far.
One afternoon, JD, my mom, Andrea, Makaila & myself were walking through Sam's Club. Drea & my mom where in front, KK was in her infant carrier, JD & I were pushing the basket talking. Drea was 5 at the time mind you. All of a sudden I hear her saying something about tator tots. So, I ask her what she is saying, but she replies, "nothing". OK.
We walk a little farther & I hear her, "Pussy & tator tots, pussy & tator tots". So, shocked, I ask her what she is saying, she looks me in the face & asks, "WHAT'S WRONG WITH PUSSY & TATOR TOTS MOM?" as an elderly woman walks past us. Anyone who knows Drea, knows she is not a quiet child. I wanted to crawl under a rock & die. So I tell her it is inappropriate & we will not say the "p" word again.
When I ask my mom why she did not tell her to stop, she says, "I thought if I ignored her she would stop on her own." UMMMM okay, BUT SHE DIDN'T!! Of course mom looks at JD & asks him where she heard that & adds, "What an odd combination."
I was mortified!! What do you think that little old lady told her family when she got home. Just imagine!
That is all for now, more later!
"I assure you, unless your turn from your sins & become as little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven.
Therefore, anyone who becomes as humble as this little child is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven." Matthew 18:3-4
