Troubling Minds

I have been a part of a support group here in our local town & also a part of some online groups. Reading so many different stories of how parents have lost their children, during pregnancy all the way to adulthood. I have learned no one is ever prepared & no one is immune to tragedy!

I have come across stories recently & once I have read the story I am so heartbroken at times I wish I had not just read that or God gives me words to share. It can, at times, make a person paranoid about their own children. At the same time, it makes me humble & love my children a little more than I already do.

When I flash back to being in labor with Andrea, I think back about how they had sent us home once & were going to send us home again when my water broke. I am so lucky that they kept me. One) I was already over due & Two) I could have lost her if I had went home to stay because of her cord being around her neck. I have read similar cases to mine where the mom waited to go to the hospital & her baby did not make it or they were past their due date & the baby passed before the doctors decided to induce.

Then, I think about when I went into labor with Makaila. How we took our time getting to the hospital & being all nonchalant about the whole ordeal, just for her to go into fetal distress after the doctor checked my cervix. Did she go into fetal distress because she checked me? Would she have went into distress if we would have taken just a little more time? I read a story similar to mine that did not have a happy ending. I could never imagine how my life would be without her.

Also, when I was pregnant with Makaila, a co-worker lost her son at 6 1/2 months. He was due just a few weeks before Makaila. The remainder of my pregnancy I just thought, "That could be me".

It is enough to make a person have an anxiety attack. However, I know when enough is enough & I need to step away from the computer & I know when God had lead me to someone that I need to share my story of Nehemiah with or just to give them some words of kindness. I think He also gives me the opportunity to let these people show me something or to remind me that I am blessed with my little Earth angels.

Thank you God for blessing me with my three Earth angels & my Heaven angel. I pray for patience & the wisdom to raise my children the way You want me to Lord. Please be with those parents who had to say good-bye for now & may they have peace in their hearts. ~Amen