Sunday, April 27, 2014

I Hate Change

When I thought I might be pregnant with my third child I had not been going to the OBGYN regularly, so I had to find someone.

I tried getting into a doctor that all my lady friends recommened to me; however, the receptionist on the telephone advised me that she was booked up a year. I knew if I was pregnant there was no way it was possible to be placed on a waiting list. I asked if there were any other doctors in their office with openings for new patients. I had advised her that I was most comforatable seeing a woman. She gave me two names to choose from. I asked her to make a recommendation. Well, she could not have recommended a better doctor for me!

This doctor was perfect! She was sweet, attentive, and was not judgey, like some can be about overweight women and when we lost Nehemiah she could not have been more wonderful!

I continued seeing her annually and even after my 4th pregnancy. She was awesome all the way through. 

Well, just a few days ago I opened a letter from her that she was "retiring from active practice immediately". When I read that sentence my heart stopped beating for a moment and tears filled my eyes! After the sting wore off a bit, I told myself I cannot change doctors! Who will I find? Then I thought, I did not get to tell her good-bye and I have not seen her since last May, couldn't she have waited until May to let me know she was retiring?

I hate change! I just cannot do it! Ok, I know I can, but I am really sad about it. I know we go through seasons and this is just one I will have to go through even though I do not want to. I just have to pray about it and I know the Lord will find me the perfect doctor, besides Himself of course.


Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Hard Working

When you are a team captain of a group of people, I do not think they realize how hard it is. There is a lot of preparation and information to get out, that there are times of miscommunication, hurt feelings, etc. You have to get people motivated for your cause to help you out, you have to have a strong support group to get in there and get their hands dirty. Some people like to just show up and that is fine too, but I think they miss all the small details it takes to keep it all going.

This is my 6th year to be a part of our local March of Dimes walk and to be team captain of my own family team. This year has been a little more stressful than years past though. It seems my support group has dwindled and there has been some discord amongst us. I feel like I might be being led into a different direction and I am ok with that. I just know I need to pray on it and make sure it is God talking to me, leading me, and not that of my self. 

Don't get me wrong, I have loved doing it and know that my reward is not here on earth, but with my Heavenly Father. I know I am making my baby boy proud, too.

I am forever thankful to those who have stood beside my family and have supported us in this great cause. It has been a great way to release some of our grief.

I will keep everyone posted in the future months on what my next endeavor may become. 


 
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6